Piss off!

It was a very helpful book for me. I hope it helps you, too.

Hope you all will have a Happy New Year.

My family now blindly are utilizing the new ‘digital’ blogging technology to finally bring about their dream of spreading the gospel that Armstrong once did. They are once again spreading the news of the twt. Members of my family give sermons. :S .

I have always kept quiet about my objections because I know I would be out on the street even at 20 as someone with CFS.

I am not a Nihilist as the god fearing consider all atheists. But even If I was to win the philosophical argument and point out inconsistency in their doctrine using their own holy book, they would find a way to justify what they have always believed.

A good example is the idea that man is made ‘perfectly’ (and flawed because we have an expiry date, not to mention my eternal sickness) so you should not alter your body, get any tattoos, or pollute your body with drugs/smoking. Yet at the same time they cut off a large piece of skin from the most sensitive part of a males body in the name of branding a child for god and removing the potential for earthly pleasures that led one astray (I guess humans are made with a defect that has to be cut off -even though we are supposed to be made perfect). My birth home is a lost cause. Their is no way to win this war, they have believed from youth and to take that away from them would be equal to death – and I would really like to actually live for once in my life. I have been surrounded by hate, spite, anger, and death inside me and out for so long.

When it is 32 (the average number of church goers) v 1 you don’t even try to fight if your smart. I tried going to church if just to keep up the act so as to avoid verbal harassment but so much of what is said actually now makes me physically sick. There is so much to be said, but I wisely held my peace when I could have spoken and now there is nothing left but a headache.

They constantly come up with new historical evidence that proves ‘God’ and that their doctrine is the true one. Much of this of course I cannot refute because I cannot really even remember my own past let alone piece together what took place millennia ago. I live within my means.

But the book of revelation and the statue Daniel ’saw’ made of gold at the head all the way down to the feet made of clay and —something else— still unnerve me. Specifically how they call the EU the beast. And the woman riding the beast is Europes mascot Europa riding the bull. The flag also seems to reflect the idea of different ‘kings’ (leaders of the nations of the eu) giving their power to the beast (the leader of the European parliament or council). Also the forecast for the failure of the earths magnetic feild and future reversal, along with increased volcanic activity and the fact that humans can now destroy ‘all flesh.’ Seems to support this apocalyptic religion that is based on human helplessness as they struggle against what has already been predetermined.

So finally let me just say that in my personal life experience I see now evidence for an all powerful loving god. Even if this massive story occurs and my parents were right all along this just shifts the hatred/blame off the shoulders of my family and onto the cruel almighty god who supposedly created us just to ease his boredom/loneliness.

What is free will for if all we can use it for is to struggle in vain, or justify our fates.

The one truth in this world is that the ‘truth’ is determined by those with power.

There are many gods in this world they are called nations, parents, the rich, the minister, the president… ect.

I am just so tired of it all. The world is insane, cruel, and whimsical. As it has been for all recorded history. My own mother and father say they love me. But their love is not real. My own mother tormented me when I had a crush, when I had image issues she suspected I was gay. And then as the incarnation of evil went on to say how whatever I feel is pointless – that the bible is all that matters.

Yet she says she loves me. To her I am everything the bible says to detest. The bible would call me an abomination to be stoned to death. If only she knew. She made her own child fall into depression and cry in secret for 10 years. That every time they speak about their invisible master is like daggers to my heart and temples.

Age gives authority.

They spend their lives exalting a book and care little for those alive around them. It is all for the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

With words like faith, fate, and destiny, what is freewill.

I now have a definition for evil even as a moral relativist living in this paradoxical hypocritical world. It is called (organized) Religion.

Happy new year. hahahahahaaa. In fact I really wish you a good life. No really. With more happy people in the world maybe I might be able to actually be happy one day for once in my life.

Maybe it would be therapeutic to burn some of the monotheistic religious texts.

On second thought the Knights Templar, Jihadist, Zionist, and the saddistic Armstrongist thought police would probably come after me.

I hope you have a eventful year that moves your plot forward a little. ^^

In truth, I had to look up Armstrongism, simply because I didn’t recognize it, until i realized “oh, wait, this is that Worldwide Church of God thing.” because I didn’t read the tagline at the top of the page. I don’t tend to do that, because then I’d have to care, which I don’t. Blogs are blogs, and every idiot and their mother has a blog proving that even the lonely and the sociopaths, can have 15 minutes of fame, in the world of cyberspace. Well whatever, at least it keeps them off the streets, and the crime rate has dropped accordingly (yes there are statistics to prove that).

My parents were caught up in the Church for awhile, back in the 80’s and pretty damn judgmental (the church, not my parents), and as I have studied theology as well as histrionics, I use to really like to play with them, to see if i could rattle their cages; which I did regularly.

Now, don’t get me wrong. I don’t have a problem with faith at all on any level. But faith, without joy or happiness, which is inundated with fear of the end of the world, and looking behind every tree “for a demon” so to speak, or waiting for the next major conspiracy, just cracks me up.

So obviously I have to screw with it… and lets face it. It isn’t like there is anything on TV.

Anyway, one night, one of the elders, or deacons, or whatever he liked to call himself in order to elevate his piety; came over for dinner. I was just in my teens. So, me being me, started asking him questions to hear his interpretations. But worse then that, I brought out a hebrew/greek interlinear bible, 5 concordances and dictionary’s and said, “prove it.”

I like to do that. People shouldn’t talk about shit they know nothing about and then get upset when no one believes them, or worse, not be able to back it up.

I don’t attend any denominational church, of any particular discipline and this is for one reason, and one reason only.

People are ignorant. They know nothing of history, archeology, science, metaphysics, physics, and histrionics. In my opinion, if anyone has a belief, or a viewpoint without due diligence, then they’re a mindless drone, and a sheep who deserves the results they end up with in life.

Anyway, I’ve enjoyed much of what I’ve read here, even if I haven’t agreed with most of it, but then as I said further up this comment. I don’t understand believing in a God of any kind, and being paranoid and miserable, afraid of everything.

That last statement isn’t a statement upon the authors here, but rather a commentary about all religions. Freedom with rules cannot exist. A celebration of birth, isn’t a reason to flog oneself, so any religion, or faith system, or belief, which requires a: judging everyone else, being relentlessly somber and unhappy, or worse, declaring their the only one’s who “know the truth” without any effort to research to test themselves.

Is
An
Idiot.

anyway, nice reading this